memorian

Suddenly, I remember one thing which happened to us some years ago. You tried to tell me what you felt in one place which is not romantic or beautiful place but it was enough to show me how shy you were. I could see you were so shy. You were casting down and spanning a straw in your glass. You told me that you would ask something but you only kept silent. You absorbed in your hot plate of steak. So… I just did it too. You said nothing till we went to my home. Whereas, I would go to Rangkasbitung town that night.

On your bike, you told me everything about your life, including how you regard your girl friend, how you always try to keep her safe, how you always be in her side. You know what. In that day, I wanna be your girl friend to feel how you keep me safe, and how you love me every time with all your kindness.

But till I was in home you asked me nothing. I hope you would ask me to be your girl friend. I was wrong. You asked nothing. After you went to your house, I packed my clothes into my bag. I was ready to go to Rangkasbitung for holiday. Shockingly, I received your message. Yes you text me to be your girlfriend. I was so shy. Really I was shy. I didn’t know what to do. I was shocked. I thought a moment and I replied your message; “YES”… you said thank you… and asked me to be careful. I was happy. Finally, you told me what I wanted to hear. Thank you

After 2 years, we decided to make it over. So we made it. You know what I want. I know you didn’t want it, but you still appreciated what I want, so… you just let it be. Thank you for understanding my decision.

Even though we don’t have a relationship anymore, you always be my guard. You always try to be behind me and keep me from everything. You always make me laugh. You are always here when I need. That’s why it’s going to be hard to let you go…